Week 2

Week 2

I have been  focussing on the dress with the inserted  strips, but still not able to get the shape, it’s almost like I am experiencing a writers block, but it's a pattern cutters block in this case.
I worked on an Art easel rather then a stand with the paper strip idea. I think this reflects what’s going on in my head. I am all over the place, lots going on, nothing is really clear. Looks and feels tangled.  I know there is something quite interesting brewing beneath , between or within all this fuss. of the circus like shilouette i have created. 

I am trying new mediums, so I have decided to work with chicken wire, and thread ridgeline through to see what silhouette this gives me. I feel this is so removed from my comfort zone, it’s like the first time you go from a green run to a blue run. You feel really proud and pleased with yourself, it's a whole new adreneline rush. 

However that  wasn’t to last. Zowie basically put me back on the nursery slopes. I was told I was not an artist, what was I doing with an art easel? I was lost and in limbo. I was not going to graduate as an artist so I should stop trying to be one. What i was trying to do would only be possible if i were on a 4 year art and design programme, not a year course.I need to stay with what I know and what I am good at. Well that told me! I did enjoy that very short journey and i  agree with what she is saying!

This being a one year course, I can see why she was trying to reign me back in to what I do, clothes, as there isn’t the time to explore and experiment as this will be to the detriment of my final journey. However I still felt demoralised and knocked down by Zowie’s comments. This is part of my learning cuver.

 Identifying my concept is proving to be a problem, i feel at times that my brain is an empty canvas.  I keep drawing a blank. I am sure when i come up  with a concept it will be good , but when will that be , is the question i keep asking myself. The possibility that i am too old and certain brain cells have been dormant for so long that they are struggling to come to life again.? I don't think i want to beleive that.!